Recently, I began to reward myself for completing assignments and daily chores. I designed a reward system and planned to follow it. However, I could not resist. As the judge, jury, and executioner, there are no checks and balances to put myself in place. I think I figured out the cause of my behavior. I am under-appreciated and feel very tired. Perhaps talking about my struggles could relieve my stress and help me feel appreciated. So here goes:
My strongest motivation to finish school are my two children. My mother simply disapproves me going back to school at this time. I removed myself from the workplace and remained at home so I may fully attend to the needs of my children for two years. My son is now four and my daughter is six. I strongly believe it is time to attend school again, but she wants me to stay home for another four years. She has her reasons; I considered it and respect it, but I disagree.
Posting and responding to the discussion forums is quite easy. Writing about myself is so difficult. How do I stop myself form overindulging? I really do not know, but I feel that posting blogs might really help.
Hey Kyle, as a mother who also judges her children because as parents that’s what we do; we want the best for them and their children and we think we know best because we have lived more life than our children, but we don’t always know more. You must remember, you are the parent of your children and how you raise them and what challenges you take in your life are also yours. I appreciate your statement that you respect your mom but do not always agree with her. All you can do is what you think is right and in the end it will be the right thing for you and your children. Your mother’s approval may come or it may never come, but her love, I'm sure is always there for you. Keep your goals in mind and enjoy your children while they are young because these days are far too short. I appreciate your honesty and look forward to following your progress throughout this course.
ReplyDeleteHi Kyle~ You sound like an amazing father. I am not sure what you are over indulging in but, maybe reward yourself with something that is positive, swimming with your kids, going to the zoo on family day, throwing rocks in the ocean, a concert in the park,... rewards that are free and you and your children can do together, with no electronics or other family members. This is what I tried to do when my kids were young and, now that they are grown up, the free things we did together are the best memories.
ReplyDeleteRock on! Some times I think I am all alone out here. I ask myself what am i doing this for? Why is this so hard? I then here stories like this and think there are strong motivated people out here. It gives me strength to here these things, I have no children as of right now and could only imagine that it would be the ultimate reward for all this hard work. Keep it up you will go far!
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